“You made me lose my self control”
the feeling so visceral
the memories hit in waves
i miss the way you fell into my life
a natural disaster of everything i needed
Of everything I convinced myself that I needed
you came and wrecked the order of my heart
you made me love the thrill
the chaos, distractions and
i loved being everything i didn’t think i was
i loved you for bringing it out of me
and as quickly as you arrived, you left
memories stayed
looking around me, debris everywhere
made of pieces of my heart
and scraps of letters that never made it to you
the waves of your departure rocked the boat
and all I can ask is for relief
e. a. 2019
in honor of blonde’s 4 year anniversary, it lives in my heart forever
